In an effort to Keep it Real with you and myself, I am going to start a series entitled: ’Fess Up Friday: Keepin’ it Real. Each Friday, I will fess up and share with you something that happened to me that week… showing you that I am a very real person, just like you. Feel free to comment below or link up to play along!
Earlier this week, I posted a year in review recap: photos, scale pic, measurements and all! I worked my tail off from June to December… the weight fell off and my hard work was evident.
However, if I were to be honest and keep it real (which is the reason for my fess up Friday post), I really haven’t worked to lose any more weight since. I was in a gloomy fog – FUNK – the past few months.
I worked hard to lose the weight and was very number on the scale focused from June through December. When I was finished with my bootcamp, I was tired of trying. I wanted a break from the scale: the hard work, portion control, self-control. I wanted to relax and was hoping (praying really) that the weight would just magically disappear.
It didn’t work that way.
Each week when I hopped on the scale to weigh myself, I was hoping for some magical divine intervention that would drop the weight.
There were some weeks where the weight would drop… and others when it would bounce back up. Basically I have maintained my weight for 6 months… not bad… but not exactly helpful towards my ultimate goal.
There was no REAL effort. No real work. No intense training. No real desire to lose weight. Eating what I wanted, when I wanted. Cookies. Chips. Pop. Junk. Junk. Junk. No self-control. Then making up for those bad food choices with more running.
Why am I sharing this with you today? Because I want to use this blog as a place where I can be real with you (and myself).
The sun is shinning. I am focused. I am no longer placing the blame on anyone else. I am doing this for me! I am in control of my actions.
I hope that in a few weeks I can honestly say that I am trying again… but for today, I confess that I have not even tried. I fess up… I am not perfect, nor do I pretend to be. I am still learning and growing while on this journey.
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Link up and/or comment your fessin’ up below:
As far as my physical activity, I feel like I have established a pretty regular workout routine and I get plenty of exercise. I struggle with my diet and food choices. I feel guilty about it everyday… and not just what I put in my own mouth but what I feed my family. I have a whole house of picky eaters, including my husband. I have two little boys and I try to offer them a variety of foods but they certainly have their favorites. I do not want to cater to them but I also do not want them to be hungry. It is a vicious cycle and I get frustrated often. Hopefully one day I will get a handle on this and feel better about what our family eats so I can continue to teach them that healthy living goes beyond just exercising.
Awww hugs! I will definitely be in on ‘Fess Up Friday next week – sorry I missed this week!
I fess up I really need music to finish my runs. Without music I succumb to the temptation to just stop running.